Friday, March 7, 2014

Broken Hearts

Decorative walls don't matter today. Our hearts are hurting as we had to say good-bye to Ranger unexpectedly yesterday.
He was my baby, even though he was 15 y.o. He's been going downhill, with very limited vision and absolutely no hearing left. I'm pretty sure yesterday was the worst day of my life so far. You see, I backed over Ranger as I was leaving to take Bryn to soccer practice. It was horrific. He appeared fine initially but we rushed him to the vet anyway. As time progressed we realized he could hardly stand on his own. The vet thought I 'just bumped him' which triggered a neurological response that's been a long time coming. He said his condition was like a ticking time bomb and it could have been anything that triggered it. The vet was very kind in not pointing his finger at me as the cause. We decided to bring him back home for the night so we could process everything but he had a major seizure in my arms as we were leaving. We made a quick turnaround and went back to the vet. It appears our decision had been made for us.

I debated sharing this information, but in some odd way I felt I needed to so I could heal. I'm the type of person that feels better after I spew out my problems. I said earlier this was the worst day of my life so far and that's true. But, looking at that statement with my rose-colored glasses shows me how extremely blessed I am. I'm not dealing with the loss of a child, mine are all healthy. Relatively speaking, my hurts are minor. Yet, hurt is hurt and broken hearts take time to heal. We'll miss our sweet Ranger beyond belief.

11 comments:

Kara said...

He was a part of your family and that loss hurts. I'm so sorry.

jackie jade said...

this is so sad and i'm so sorry for your loss. our pets aren't human but they are still part of our family so I know this must've been awful. and I have two sweet pugs so I know I would be devastated as well. sorry for your loss.

Lisa @ Shine Your Light said...

Oh Dana. So sorry to hear about this sadness for your family. Sending lots of hugs your way.

Wendy said...

I don't think I've ever commented here but had to today. You had your sweet furbaby for 15 years and he was a big part of your family for years, I'm sure. How can you not grieve? We said good-bye to our 13 year old lab 2 months ago. It's so hard to say good-bye to such good friends!

Cassie @ Primitive & Proper said...

oh dana, i am so so sorry. i know ranger knew how much you all loved him. time does heal, too. as you know we lost charlie the day after thanksgiving... most days now life feels normal, although the house is so quiet when the kids are at school and jake and i are alone. but i know that charlie is up in heaven with all of the puppy energy and the sight and hearing he once had, just as ranger is.

pam {simple details} said...

Oh my sweet friend, I am so sorry. My heart aches for all of you. I still remember that cute spot you made for him at the bottom of your built-in in your old house. He was lucky to have a wonderful home with all of you for so long.

rebecca @ older and wisor said...

We lost our Simon, the most perfect and adored cat in the whole world, when he got stuck in the garage door that was shut by me. ME. It stopped from going all the way down, but pinned him so that he couldn't move and he eventually suffocated...and since I didn't know that he had even gotten into the garage in the first place...I get teary all these years later just typing it. Later that night when I went to go to the store, I opened the door from the house and freaked out(to put it mildly). In any case, I'm sending you a virtual hug because you are not along, my friend. May you be blessed with the spirit of comfort during this difficult time.

Charisse WHG said...

Dana, I am so sorry. Your beloved Ranger lived his long life well loved. How very special he was to you. I hope you will soon smile at his memory, but for now, go ahead and cry. It will help you heal. I am so sorry for your loss. Peace to your heart

Anonymous said...

May he rip, sorry for your loss....cute little guy!

Melissa Clark said...

I know what you are going thru! You were in the hood when we had to put our first, Zoe, down! Hang in there! Love ya!

Samantha said...

So sorry for your loss. I too have a litle dog and she's part of our family.

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